There are so many people who admire world travelers, because how many people in this world get to visit more than two countries ever in their life? But are they really to be admired?
I once had that same view while I was living in America, my second home. Because of family problems, I never thought that America was even home to me. I always thought of how much I grieved for Korea, my home country. Because of family issues, I ended up being able to head to Korea for the first time in seven years. It was one of the best days of my life. I was reunited again with my elderly grandmother and my mom. I felt like I was home. But the thing is, that only lasted for a short while.
After I started my online schooling, I was either at home or at a café every single day. I barely had any interaction with kids of my age. Please do not get me wrong in thinking that I regret my decision to go to Korea because I think it was the best seven months of my life. I was able to reconnect with my mom from ground up; she is the closest friend I will ever have.
The thing was that I was getting bored. I was getting bored because I had no friends outside of my mom. We loved each other, but having your mom as your best friend is a little different than having an “actual” best friend who is your age. Honestly, I was missing my friends that I had decided to leave behind in Florida. I left because of my pride, and I was paying for it.
Randomly out of nowhere, I heard from my step-mom that they were moving to China to teach at an international school. I was super excited for them and saw that this would be a good opportunity for me to become academically challenged. I loved my teachers at my online school and knew that I had been super blessed by them but I did not think I was being challenged.
So after a few months of waiting for my visa and this and that, I was on a plane to China. I was so excited to try out this new life and adventure. Of course, I thought that China would be similar to Korea so there wouldn’t be a problem adapting to my new “home.”Oh boy, was I wrong! I landed in China and saw people spitting on the ground (even women) and speaking this language that I had no knowledge of. The sky was dreary and I could smell smoke in the air. The first night, my parents took me out to a Chinese restaurant and the food was…interesting. I don’t think five spice is my thing.
I was missing my friends that I had decided to leave behind in Florida. I left because of my pride, and I was paying for it…I don’t think I would ever advise anybody to live outside of your home for too long because home really is where the heart is. And my heart is in Florida.
I learned a lot of things being in China. I learned about what my life should look like. I feel like I became an adult and actually matured into a young woman. I learned about God through my difficulties and saw that He was always there for me when I needed him. Before my arrival to China, I was an atheist but now I am surrounded by the people of God, I could feel His love pouring out from them. The people of LDi are great mentors and friends. I know I shouldn’t be calling my teachers “friends”, but when I graduate from school, I think I will always be able to call them up anytime to ask for advice and an ear to listen to.
Right now, I am having a really hard time because I am homesick. I am not homesick for Korea but am homesick for the States. I miss my friends, having a car, and being able to go to a grocery store to buy whatever I want. It is the little things that really hurt. I haven’t been able to make a real friend and I am not sure if that is God showing me that I am supposed to be somewhere else. Or is it that I am sinning by not trying hard enough?
The last eight months of my life in China have been hard, but God reminds me every single day that His glory is more important than my comfort.
Would I say that traveling the world is great? Yes, but only if you are traveling for a vacation. I don’t think I would ever advise anybody to live outside of your home for too long because home really is where the heart is. And my heart is in Florida. Before you make a wish, always think about the consequences that may come with it, because my wish of leaving the States a year and a half ago is biting me in the heels right now.
Featured photo: “My two most precious people in this world. My moms.”